i love it.
whats new?
holy cow, do i never keep up with this thing anymore.
but for some reason, i can't seem to let it go.
anyways, time for an update.
life is. good.
full.
the other day after a bike ride with a friend,
i just came home and thought,
dang.
my life is so full of people who i love.
people who love me.
and i don't think i've ever really had that,
to this extent.
and i'm so thankful.
things on the life front are good too.
i've taken over the kids program at church.
well, am in the process.
and while i was a little stressed about it at first,
i feel good.
it's only for a year while the other lady is on mat leave.
so i think, that's helping.
though, i also worry that i will get too attached to it,
and when the year is up, i won't want to stop.
but, i'll cross that bridge when i get there.
it means a lot of work, a lot of planning.
a lot of meetings, and budgeting.
but i think it will be good for me.
it will help me, grow up in ways i have yet to do so.
since taking this on,
i hate to say the candy business has been put on hold for the summer.
a few weeks ago, were really rough.
i haven't been that down, in ages.
and i couldn't put a finger on it.
a lot of shitty things happened,
and i guess, it just came down to one night,
i realized, i am just going to have no time.
adjusting to leading sprouts (kids program)
is going to take a while.
and a lot of time.
and i just. don't want to do the candy thing,
until i've settled into a new groove.
until i can give it my 110%.
until it can be the best it can be,
and not rushed.
and not half assed.
i don't want to do it.
i've waited forever to find a passion.
to find something that i can do, and do well.
and, i just. can't waste a chance, when i can't give it my all.
if that makes sense.
i won't be able to get the licences i need for supercrawl in time.
so there isn't much point in trying for the art crawls after.
so i figure when things slow in the fall,
i will begin the process and be ready to go come the new year.
it was a tough decision.
but i think the best one.
two small trips this summer.
my one friend is going (way) up north to teach on a reserve this summer.
(22 hours up north)
so i'm gonna drive up with her.
we're gonna cut thru the states and camp for a couple nights.
i'm looking forward to it.
also looking forward to the train ride back home.
a day and a half? yes please.
i love the train.
also - going to osheaga.
again.
i thought i had decided not to go this year
until i saw icona pop on jimmy fallon.
and it sold me,
i need another best dance moment.
i don't think that anything will top last year.
but montreal is always nice.
so, that's happening.
otherwise,
i'm not sure what else is new.
finally almost done organizing my place,
and then i can paint.
and feel at home.
i have a feeling it's going to be a good summer, indeed.
xoxox |
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