i get a shock, shock;

08/09/2009

hurts to heal.

it has been so long since i have been here.
so much has happened.
yet, i feel like nothng ever changes.

i am moving in two weeks.
i don't know that i'm ready to leave this part of my life behind.
it's been two and a half years.
but i think it's time.

i had to put the bunny down on monday.
i dont know if the feelings of guilt will ever go away.
the vet said that i can't blame myself.
bunnies hide when they're sick because they don't want to be preyed upon.
i just wish i knew.
i wish i could have saved him.
i hope he wasn't afraid.
i loved him more than anything else.
he was a good friend.

i quit one of my jobs.
freedom is sweet,
when the days aren't so grey.

i haven't been true to myself,

and i'm just realizing it now.

rest in peace my love.