keys are rare;

06/29/2010

& there's 1000 locks.
I feel. Lost.
I used to be doing so well.
every now and then, I just get so damn discouraged.
maybe I can't be a writer.
maybe i'll never sell a single book.
but. Couldn't I get a little support?
it is what I have wanted since I was young,
so shouldn't I try it? Just to see?
maybe I really will hate it.
but maybe, maybe I will love it.
and maybe, in it, I will somehow find myself again.
I'm tired of always being insecure with who I am.
I need to get on with my life,
"the longer we wait around, the faster the years go by"
I love broken bells.
thank goodness for good musicians.

I hope I feel better soon,
right now I feel like there is never enough time.
to get anything done.
yet I tend to spend alot of time stoned.
watching tv
I lack inspiration.
& that's my favourite part.

xoxoxoxo