stick up for yourself son,

03/04/2010

nevermind what any body else has done.

i am so thankful to be back in canada!
texas was nice, wish it were a little warmer,
but at least it wasn't snowing!

the hotel.. i felt like a millionaire.
i'll never get to stay somewhere that nice again,
you walk in and its marble, everywhere.
huge hot tub, sauna, pool,
it was just lovely.
the atrium where they had the reception was so nice as well.
a few minor set backs, i think my sister cried a few times,
not the way she wanted things to happen,
but i think overall she's happy.
she's with auz, and that's all that matters.

havent spent that much time with the family since i moved out.
a little stressful to say the least,
but we're all still alive

otherwise things are going,
still working on the french,
lately i've been focusing more on catching up on my reading though.
i need to learn more about how i want to write.

things with mike are alright,
still havent had the discussion about whether or not we're exclusive.
which, i suppose is okay.
i still don't know what i want,
after everything that's happened, i don't mind taking it slow.
he makes me smile at least,
and that's what i need right now.

stranded at my parents.
i brought some laundry home,
and my sister was supposed to take me back tonight
but now she's gone out,
and i doubt i can rely on her to come home at any reasonable hour.
i really don't feel like sleeping on a couch,
but it may come to that.

my best friend is currently awol because she's found a new beau.
i know that makes me sound jealous,
and to a certain degree i am.
i've just had enough friends in my life that completely disappear
from my life when they meet someone new.
and then when it doesnt work, they come back.
i just don't want to be a "convienient (sp?) friend" anymore.
i understand wanting to see your boyfriend,
but i think it's important to keep your friends too.
i dont know how i always wind up in these situations.
i really need to get out and meet some more people.
i'm tired of repeating the same mistakes.


on the bright side,
yeasayer's new album makes my life,
i'm pretty sure i'm going to get a noise complaint soon.
but it's totally worth it.


love yous.