i'm caught in the undertow.
things aren't going so well lately.
don't know how I wound up back in a hole.
I am so depresed, I can't handle it.
my best friends new boyfriend has taken up all her time.
I know that's to be expected, but
I don't think people should totally cut their friends out either.
she only talks to me when she's upset with him or needs a favour.
we haven't seen each other in three weeks.
tonight she came to drop off her cat so I can cat sit while they go away.
if I didn't agree to that a month ago, I would have said no.
anyways, she comes to bring her by.
I figured that since we haven't seen each other in a while we would hang out.
she brought her boyfriend with her.
dropped the cat off, and left.
I was such a bitch to her, and I don't even care.
I've talked to her about it numerous times.
she always says sorry, but nothing ever changes.
am I over reacting? I just don't think that's how a best friend should be.
I'm really upset about it.
especially since she knows how down in the dumps I've been as of late.
sigh.
I quit smoking pot a while ago.
tomorrow, I'm buying some.
I hate that. But, not as much as I hate being so low.
love yous.
xoxo
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