I really really want to lose weight. I'm really unhappy with myself at my current weight. I weigh 143 pounds and I need to lose at least ten pounds. I hate being fat but I almost always sabotage my chances of reaching my goals by eating too much, finding an excuse to overeat, flat out binging or feeling out if control when I eat anything like I almost can't stop. It happened again today. I made plans to start my diet today but just because I had to do some cleaning, I gorges myself in calories reasoning I could use them all up when I cleaned but in reality, I will be lucky if I break even now and I'm feeling sick,sad, scared and mad at myself. I want to start being successful on my diet again. It seemed like in the past, it helped me when I had an online journal as sort of extra accountability . So I hope I can stop sabotaging my dreams of losing weight and start making it happen so I can feel better about myself. |