Crappy Birth...Week? [LOOOOONG]

12/10/2010

and I though LAST year couldnt get any worst....guess I was wrong...for like the 3 year in the row...
yesterday was TOTALLY shitty.
But where do I start?
I'll start on Monday...
Monday when I got home from school (i was still currently at my foster shelter)
the staff totally busted me & my friends cuz theyy read her diary (kinda invasive of privacy huh?)
but yeah..then they thought we were all in some kind of weird lesbian threesome.
so my BFF "S"had to change rooms, amd "A" couldnt be in the same area with me & S at the same time. talk about LAAAAAAAME.
I couldnt even sit by them at dinner, or in the van ride to "school". (not really a school, just an alternative program the next city over)
k, but yeah, then.. they made us all go to bed @ 8. which i didnt care anyway, i was tired as hell.
but Tuesday, they made me go to bed early again & gave me room restriction. (means I cant leave my room, only to eat dinner and use the bathroom)
so, at that point, I SNAPPED. (i've been at the shelter since July, and had multiple room restrictions and EBT [early bed time] in the past.)
so...i just went off.
they also told me they were tryna call CPS & have me removed from the shelter that day. tuesday. dec.07. (my 18th birthday is dec.09, and i wasnted to spend it with my freinds at the shelter before I got kicked out for ageing out of the system & sent to an ILP program for kids who age outta the system)
ao anyway, I SNAPPED. i couldn't take it anymore. i told ALL the staff off.
bitched @ them cuz they were talking to my friend like a dog. (i don't care if they think I'm a lesbian, i KNOW im not, & i really didnt let them bother me, but S gets embarrassed REALLY easily)
they went to her saying "S did u kiss anyone today? grab anyone's breast?" she said "no aunty" and looked down ebarassed. so I looked up @ the staff & said "YOU KNOW WHAT??, the ONLY reason you keep harrassing her, is cuz u just JEALOUS that noone wants to grab your SAGGY OLD ASS" and she said she was gonna call CPS, get me out ASAP. blah blah blah.
& wen i went to da shelter i said "iDONT give a Flying FUCK, i AINT going to my ROOM"

but when we went in, i got bored cu all my friends dont know how to BREAK THE RULES" so i just went to my room (lol)

but yah, that day just my luck, the only staff I actually respect came in..bt if it were anyone else, Iwould have totally just went MAD. but nahhh, "mama" is kinda like the mom of the shelter, so i respect her & i did my room restriction, cleaned my room & packed my stuff.

but early that day when i was packing my stuff the staff called CPS & said i was tearing my room apart & not listening & distroying stuff. BULL SHIT.

nut yah, i got into my foster place the day b4 my birthday (wednesday afternoon)
it wasnt that bad. too much rules. wont let me do anything & are CRAZY AS HELL.
told me not to look their dogs in the eyes (they sometimes try to attack)
but yah,
they make me wait for a trolley i n the rain (instead of driving me to the busstop) then the trolley drops me off near by the busstop, hen the bus i take drops me off about a mile from schoo. & i can either walk to catch another bus too the top of the hill.

i guess things are gonna get better....im thankful; i have a roof over my head & food in my stomache even if i have to deal with crazy's.
but i cant visit my family, cuz they dont know the "rules" or if i can be allowed. like WTF? they suppose to know.

at least they got me a cake. i havent had one in years...so yeah. thats it.
weird ass birthday.

not to mention some bitch @ school called me out & had DRAMA, but thats another LONG ASS STORY. long story short. went to VP, and yeah. this aint over. cuz shes a dumbass immature bitch.