...the plot thickens!
My SIL text my mom last night saying "I was having a terrible period so I went to the hospital ...found out I'm having a miscarriage"
My first thought was "oh palease!" and even now I haven't moved past my initial reaction of not caring.
Inwardly, as a human being, I want to care. I want to send her love because of the life she's saying is lost, I want to send prayers in her and my brothers direction and let them know they're not standing alone. But I can't cause I don't care! and that makes me feel like I'm a terrible person.
My mom told me she text them back but didn't call them because she "doesn't feel like having a real relationship with them right now, they're on their own". My grandma told me she "doesn't feel like it's real because it's convenient and my SIL could have gotten my mom's letter and decided to use this as a way to move past everything without confronting what's happen."
I was at Sebrina and Ladona's house when I got the text message and all the said was "that sucks".
I want to want to be there for them but there isn't a smidgen of my inner being that's convicting me to do a thing for them...or say something of value to them.
When I found out I was pregnant (and then later had a miscarriage) my brother and SIL threw the whole thing in my face, totally beat me with the situation, then used my SIL's inability to concieve as an excuse for their behavior. Part of me feels vindicated and want's to ask my SIL how it feels to have her judgements heaped upon her.
Since I'm a nice person, I won't...
but it's awfully tempting |
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