Remember the times I said,
"I couldn't live without you..."
And then,
I did.
I am.
I will have to.
But I thought I would die...
Remember a time, when not to talk with you
Was a day without sunshine.
I'd curl into a ball and wait, endlessly;
Jump at a sound and hurry to find you.
But now it is just the silence
I've come to commit to.
No searching or waiting
It is just...
Another day.
I would guess that for those who are the survivors,
All is well
But to lay in the calm, glassy-smooth waters,
All about, so still
While the struggle lays in dormancy inside me
Would I to strike my hand into the depths
Simply to furrow the reflections
As I stare with hollowed-out eyes
Wishing not to see in the mirror of still waters
That which I have become.
Lay back, restive, but futile,
To stare into the empty sky
I lament.
But tears will come no more
What cannot be
How I strain to recall
The hot flash of a few simple words
That ransacked my days
And I cannot let it go
For I would rather the wretched fantasy
Hold the fists against my temples
Trying to keep the thoughts at bay
Then admit to my soul those words,
"Never meant to be"
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