I've recently exiled myself from people again, and soon from everything. But its for a good reason. I need to soul search and figure out how I'm going to keep things the way they are. Its time to settle things between me, her, and everyone else thats been causing issues. In a way, its wrong for me to think of my relationship as a championship.. But, at heart, I'm a champion. And to me, this relationship is worth giving my all for, just like when I fight for championships.
Its funny to incorporate my "oath" to the country and God to my personal life, but the few things that I've always lived by and always will are, HONESTY, RESPECT, HONOR. And I refuse to quit, even if the odds are impossible. And lately (as in the last few months, and most of last year), I've doubted that I've had what it takes to carry on and keep trying. And it took my superstitions breaking to figure out, that I've still got it....
But enough of that, now back to my point. I'm on a mission. And its quite obvious to the people who know me. So I'm not going to give details today. Just know, this "sleeping" champion is no longer dormant. I'm awake and focused.
I'm addressing my issues with my brother first. I don't destroying my own flesh and blood, but betraying our family and siding with someone who has made it their personal goal to destroy "our" family is wrong. And by my oath, I must right the wrong... No matter what it takes. Its family, its personal, and I refuse to let the people who showed me my back bone and taught me to look for the good in all perish in in angst.
Now, I get even more personal, theres been a breech in my personal space. In my love life. And I've stood by and watched things unravel enough, its time I show my absolute thoughts and feelings with the situation. I've realized I can trust as much as I'm willing to trust myself. I've always dealt with issues head on, so now, I'm coming out again. So the cards are dealt and I've finally got my hand. And for the people "trying" to get what they want, I've got your number this time, and I wont stop until I finish what you've started. You were dumb enough to make your attempts public... So now, I start from the bottom of the list and work my way back up.
Its officially go time. And I'm bringing the fight back even stronger than before. I'm standing here making one FINAL oath to this situation. I WILL NOT FAIL, I WILL NOT BREAK, I WILL NOT STOP UNTIL THIS IS ALL UNDER CONTROL!!!!!
Forever yours,
The Son, The Brother, The Uncle, The Friend, The Fiance Steven |
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