So, bouncy-bouncy side of me has gone. Well, not exactly gone but I'm not as hyper as I was before because I hadn't slept in over twenty-four hours. Not that I'm hyper now that I did manage to sleep for over fourteen hours (don't ask), but I am...feeling a bit exhausted. My eyes kept fluttering shut as my head tipped to the side so that it could rest against the couch's arm since two in the afternoon, even though I've been awake since nine. It was as if my body felt as though I hadn't gotten any rest what so ever, and so was trying to convince me to return back to that blissful sleep.
I didn't let it. I've just managed to get some resemblance of a sleeping pattern back. I did go to bed at six last night, and then didn't wake up until nine in the morning, so that's some of the best continous sleep I have had in months. I can't screw that up by taking a nap in the middle of the day. Probably half of the problem is that I went to bed without supper last night, and I had only eaten lunch yesterday. So, that's one meal out of three and then going to sleep for longer than I should. I technically should have kept myself up until about nine and then forced myself awake at nine in the morning. That way I would have at least gotten two meals out of the day, instead of having to wait until until today and make it up. Not so sure if that made sense, but I think that the lack of proper food is what is making me tired today. Even if I have eaten three meals (I had a crossiant this morning and lots of chocolate and I know that the latter doesn't count as a proper meal, especially as I added crisps to the mix and pasta bake [my sister makes the best pasta cake]) today, I'm still feeling tired.
So, didn't really do anything today. I've been watching the 'Let's play' various video games (yes, I know that I am a bit sad) of all those horror Wii and PS2/3 games. I would never actually play them, because I am such a baby at it and I scare really easily. It's not that I have nightmares of any of them (except for zombies/scarecrows/clowns because they just really do my head in) but when I'm watching them is enough to give me a really good scare. I've found quite a few people through youtube that give really good commentary while they are playing the game, and I like going through them during the day. Not the night. I'm not stupid. I'm not going to give myself a reason to have nightmares.
And it allowed my cat to sleep on me, after the diabocle of last night. She was not pleased with my computer being on my lap and made sure that I was well aware of it. At one point, she curled up on top of my arms so that I couldn't move them (a common occurance) and then at one point, stretched. She then pushed herself onto my keyboard and left two fingers free for me to move the mouse on my laptop. And those two fingers were underneath her, but she gave me enough room to at least get some kind of movement. I stayed like that for two hours. I should have just pushed her off, but...I'm one of those crazy cat people. I let her get away with murder with me. It's not that I think she's my baby, but she's very precious to me and I do allow her to pretty much do what she wants. It annoys my housemates to no end, as her yowl is a bit annoying. That will be attested to by anyone who knows me in real life.
Anyway, as I've mentioned previously, I did find my passport. It's been missing for about three months and so I was trying to get a new one, as I also tried to get my Social Service to go through after technically losing my job, and worried non-stop about my job. I have lost it, technically, but as the examiner of the assets appointed by the bank is still trying to save it, by getting someone to buy out our shop, I can't do anything. I can't apply for any courses, I can't travel as I might be pulled back into a job at any moment, and I can't get a new job. Or, I could get a new job it's just that if in the end it is decided that all of us are being let go, then we'll get our severence package. And that would really help me out financially. So, I'm waiting.
Got my passport, but can't travel. But it does mean that I've got formal ID again. Makes my life much easier. And that I don't actually have to go through the long waiting on getting a new one, and the money penalty. If anyone doesn't know, our passport office is in shambles after the workers there have been going on and off strike for the past couple of months over cuts by the government. They don't want to lose their pensions, their pay and various other stuff that quite a few they are entitled to, and so they're protesting by going on strike. It's the exact same deal with the Social Service at the moment, so everything is taking twice as long. I was told when the last of the details went through that I should only have to wait six weeks, and that's coming up now. Hopefully any day now, I'll be getting a call from them to tell me that the first of my payments are available at the post office and I can start collecting. I've got about three months already owed to me and it's building since the I lost my job. Hopefully.
Better end it here. I've got about several months to catch up on, this is actually only a bit of it. Fall into a chasm and this is what happens when you try to write about all that has happened to you. I need to get it out, I need to purge it out of me in the hope that maybe it will help my recovery. Because I do need to get out of this funk, and writing has always proven to be a very good outlet when I'm like this.
Nighty. Nighty.
Kya |
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