There is so much to say, but I've tried to keep it to myself because I just didn't want to deal with it. I'm going to say it as it is, even though what I say isn't what I'm thinking. My name is Kristin. I am 22...and I got laid off from the job I was at for almost 4 years.
It has been a long and hectic week since I got word that I would no longer be working at the college. I was on my lunch break, buying the lunch I was about to eat and my manager came up to me to let me know that I wasn't even supposed to be at work that day, but since I had a project to finish, he allowed it as well as to tell me in person about the cut. He was sincere about it...however, I guess I was just stressing over the fact that I lost the greatest form of income I had. To this day, I still only have one job. Working one day a week definately clears up my schedule, however, trying to focus on not spending money as well as where I will be getting money in the near future engrosses my thoughts constantly. Classes are going semi-well, but once again, my focus is off and luckily, I realized that I need to buckle down pretty quick before I fall behind.
I have realized also that I have been neglecting my friends and family. All my self-pity and whatnot has kept me from facing them. I feel like the biggest failure. I was so sure of my work ethic that I could be sitting pretty for at least another year. But hey, agency staff is expendable. I knew that, but I was too cocky to realize that it was far more possible in the time and place I was at. Everyone is losing something. Money, jobs, love, life, mind, rationale...everyone's losing something. And if I don't start getting back into the swing of school, friendship and LIFE, I will never get back to where I was. Or at least where I should be.
I'm trying to find myself and I've realized that this, of all times, is the best to actually change my life. Yes, I know that times are bad, and this may not be a job lookers market, but this is my chance to prove to myself that I can save money, I can hold myself back from the frivolous spending. I have bills to pay so frivolous spending isn't the wisest thing in the world. Unfortunately, I wish I would've realized that prior to today's shopping excursion. It wasn't much, but it definately could've been prevented. Regardless, 2009 is bringing change...and all the change I have now? I need to roll up and save until I get another job...and fast! |
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