the letter.

06/01/2011

Corey,

Ever since right before I graduated, we have been just falling apart. I feel like no matter how much I try to do good by you and make you happy, I end up ruining something. I understand you are trying to protect me from the bad attitudes of your roommates, I just feel like you don't want me around. If it's a matter of them not liking me, that's one thing, but if it's a matter of you pushing me away, we have a lot to work on. I just feel as if I can't do right by you. I want to be the best for you, but my trying is just hurting me because I am constantly guessing and failing. I miss how easy it was before when we first started out Yes, we jumped in quickly, but if we went any slower now, we might as well not even bother.

I don't want to lose you, but we are like complete strangers now. I want to be with you. I love you, but right now I am so confused by how we made a complete 180 from how great it was. I want to go back to the way we were.

I understand a big reason behind our problems is our schedules and stress from the houses and jobs. I apologize for pulling you into my stress. I just hope that putting it all out there will make things more clear for us.

Corey, I love you and want to be with you. I just hope opening up will start to mend where it's broken. I just want to know it will be okay or at least workable. I want to stop crying myself to sleep every night. Worrying isn't fun but right now with all the questions, it's dependable.

I know we're in the same boat, but can we at least work together to patch the leak? I love you. I just want to feel the way we did back in August.

Always,
Kristin