What A Beautiful Mess I'm In...
by laydee:)

[o06.] SMiLE;;

02/15/2009

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& even if it kills me, I'm still gonna SMiLE.

I'm pretty sure I'm getting sick

Yippppeeee! That's another problem to add to lack of sleep

Hopefully I'm going to get doctored soon

Today was cute. My brother had his birthday party and he invited his little girlfriend over. (They're both 10.) I remember being 10 and I was totally shy around any boy! But not this one! She was just chillin like one of the guys.

Overall, I think I handled the whole Valentine's Day thing pretty well. It was a little wierd at first not having ANY boyfriend to go see or any of that bull, but to be honest it felt good to just relax for a year. Other than that it was a pretty boring day...

I'm teaching myself to play the guitar

it's harder than I thought it would be. I thought that because I'd been taught to play the piano it might be a little easier, but so far not so good. haha.

I think I'm moving to New York this summer. I talked to my mom about it and she thinks it's a good idea for me to get away from here. I can't wait...honestly, this year has been one of those "tough-lesson learning" years and I can't wait for all of the drama to go away.

Like Leona Lewis sings, "It'll all get better in time..."

-Caty