I feel really down today. And yesterday too. I feel like I'm never going to amount to anything. I've put so much work into my education. I have a phlebotomy and a marketing degree and yet I'm waiting tables. I want to provide for them more than this. Blah. Another reason I want a better job is I think Joe may love me more...no...that he may COMMITT more if I were providing better. Yes, COMMITT as in marriage. We have two kids and are still just dating. I wish so much that it was more. And I want to take some of the pressure off of him. I want to better. God, I feel like shit about me today. |