I feel numb... all the time.
Numb to pain.
Numb to pleasure.
Numb to emotion.
Numb to life.
I hate it. I am broken. I do not know who I am anymore. I do not know what caused this... I'm just a lost soul wandering the earth without a clue how I got here.
I question the meaning of life, and why I am still here every day. I have yet to find an answer that I like.
I do not know where I have gone. I woke up one day and realized the world has no meaning to it at all. No matter how hard I try I will fail. Nothing I can do will make an impact. I am merely a shadow to the world.
I want to feel life again. I want to know why I feel this way. Through the numb all I can do is cry. I cry in stressful situations, typical situations, and just anything. I cannot control my tears. My tears control me.
My friends think I am crazy. Perhaps I am. However, it is impossible to acknowledge that when you have truly gone insane... so I am not there yet.
I do not expect comments, but I would like a few words of advice.
'Til then, I will be resting in my clouded reality with nothing my rain falling onto my cold, wet, tortured existence. |
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