I just gotta get used to it

Well today wasnt the best day. Right now Im home alone cuz Gaby went out to the bar with his friend. I feel lonely cuz this is the first time he ever went out without me & he probably wont even come home. I guess Im really upset cuz he lost $10 when we are so broke that $10 is a lot of money. So I had to use the last of my money to put in gas to bring him to the bar. He said that he was going to friend's house so he can help him clean for money. But I knew that wasnt gonna happen but I didnt think that he was gonna go to the bar instead. Being pregnant fuckin sucks already. I would love to go out, I would love to drink. But I cant. And I know this is something I have to get used to cuz even when I give birth how am I gonna go out?? It just sucks to know that I might have to sleep alone tonight. Im suppose to go to Wandy's house so we can get the favors for my baby shower. But lets see if thats gonna happen cuz Gaby is wasting all my gas. And Destiny just told me about her baby shower tomorrow. But again lets see if thats gonna happen. I still dont know where Im gonna do my baby shower yet. Hopefully Gabys stepmom will let us do it in her house cuz she has a pool & a grill. Things have been stressful lately. Hopefully things start looking up for me.