Dear Diary... Well winter is here. Its freezing over here! But it also means Christmas time. Which sucks if you dont have any money. But Im excited still cuz its Xavier's first Christmas. So Ive been trying to do something with my new post pregnancy body. I feel so fat. I gained 50 pounds during my pregnancy which is crazy pathetic. But since then I lost 20 pounds. But I dont feel any different. I dont even have time to go to a gym though. Hopefully when I get daycare situated when I go to school in January I will find a way to go. My baby is growing up so fast! Hes gonna be 2 months pretty soon. And the doctor told me he had acid reflux which sucks especially since I gotta give him medicine. But Im not completly sure thats what it is cuz I think it was the bottle I was giving him. I changed bottles & he didnt cry during feedings anymore. And Gaby is always getting on my nerves. I kinda feel like I just dont want to be with him anymore. I tried breaking up with him I even took his clothes out & somehow he is still here. I just dont feel happy with him & he isnt the person I ever saw myself with for the rest of my life. But hes my baby's father I want to make it work. But I also dont want to raise my son in an unhappy home. So I guess Ill see how things go.Sx3.Layouts | 
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