I saw the bloop poll and I instantly felt uncomfortable. I was afraid to vote because I didn't know the answer. I already have the love part. But I am still working in hopes of a career. It's exhausting. I know that eventually I will have to give up my career. It makes me feel guilty. Guilty that I still want to be the one out working and making lots of money. I love my family. We created something special. I love being with my child and my husband. He has a great job at a local brewery that has become famous from a TV show called Brew Masters. Even though we don't have a lot of money right now, I could eventually stay home with Roz and have another child (which my husband talks about excitedly, as he wants a boy...typical lol). Right before I found out that I was pregnant, I started pursuing a tattooing career. I have been an artist my whole life and when I picked up a machine for the first time, it was magic. I LOVE it. It is a passion. But to be a tattoo apprentice, you must work for FREE and so you must also maintain another job also just to pay your bills in the mean time. This takes up a lot of your time. Also I spend time tattooing friends and family members. I can NOT do any of that if I get pregnant again or take care of my child. I dropped my apprenticship last year and I work part time right now. I still paint, but I can't sculpt because of my rare hand eczema condition. My hands are messed up anyway and I probably shouldn't have them in gloves for so long so I think I might have to hang up my machines. I looked at that poll and I wanted to choose "career" for a split second. Does that make me a bad person? |
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