I went to coffee and corks to play wow tonight, because despite me asking (and alice agreeing) to keep tonight free for clubbing, shes gone and cancelled on me again. I'm beginning to think of our friendship as little more than a one sided thing. She doesnt seem to value me as a friend, so she can fuck right off with the rest of them.
Saw her there, oohh ive got so many essays oh they're totally in for tommoro. She was sitting on a sofa laughing away with a glass of wine in her hand. Fuck off liar! The girl she was with is in my tourism class, and asked how i found the essay thing today. I said it was piss easy, but it hardly matters does it? I could get an A or a D or a fail but im going to leave anyway. Besides I wont even be here in january to find out how I did.
Then she really got into her stride.
"O00oh you shouldnt leave!" she wails, "you wont get a job when you leave. IVE had loads of jobs and you just wont like it!"
FUCK OFF!?
Ive had more jobs than she has, and shes treating me like some sheltered little bimbo! I felt angry. Seriously angry.
She asked me why I wanted to leave, and I told her that I cant see the point in running up a debt at uni when the job i want can be got without gcse's. And as for staying for the so called 'student life' well you can shove that as far up your arse as it will go. Sideways.
She was like "ee what makes u think you dont have any friends"
1. the liar sitting across from you WAS my closest friend
2. would I be sitting here if i had friends
3. Would I be talking with YOU, you lowlife, if I had better friends?
So they leave and ive got peace and quiet once more, despite still seething with anger for being ditched, lied to and patronised all in one evening.
I finish and come home later. Theres a load of chairs on the landing of the 2nd floor where my flat is. I have no idea why they're there so I asked alice. Apparently on saturday the ENTIRE house had a massive x mas dinner, and our flat was the only one not invited. How does that make me feel? I knew I was hated, but that much? I had no idea.
Found out that even if i stayed, alice is moving flats in january. Today is the first id heard about it. I think my friend count has unmistakably dropped to 0.
This makes me feel . . . |
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