Here's a list of the things that are not fair. Starting with the least important . .
1. My mum has turned the heating off in our house because she thinks she's getting hot flushes from her 'menopause' even though shes roughly ten years too young. What a load of jew. Shes just too tight to put the heat on, or shes loving the attention. Either way Im sleeping with 2 duvets every night.
And still being cold.
2. She panders to my brother like he's a god. He rules over her like he's one. Went shopping with her today, and was surprised how carefully she does it. Everrything she buys has to be the right brand, exactly the right one. The cheese has to be stong but not too stong, the meat has to be the best most expensive they have on sale. And for what? So the ungrateful shit doesnt throw a hissy and punch more holes in the walls. He's seventeen in a few months!
3. Havent been home nearly all christmas, and was away for three months before that. And the only thing being said to me is "sophie ate all of that" "sophie ate the last of that" "gotta have some of that before sophie eats it all"
Im like what so im not allowed to eat now is that it? Mr Overlord? Sorry if I had the last bread for breakfast I was up before you, lazy tosser! Stop blowing things up out of proportion just because you're bored. Its not enough to call me fat at every opportunity, no. You have to make me feel bad over everything I eat. Well thats going to change.
4. Feeling bad over not having a job. Thats not fair. Sure I should feel motivated to go and get a new one, but i shouldn't feel THIS. I feel like a heap of garbage, a waster, a waste of space. Like im floating around not doing anything, like i dont even deserve to sleep at night because I havent done anything in the day. Its not fair that I feel like this.
5. Life in general. Nothing is going right, and I cant stop thinking about . . .
Im watching time machine right, when the guy goes into the future and they all live in these windmill things. And everythings all nature and pretty, and no one has to worry about who they work for, or what car they drive or how much money they have. I just cant get it straight in my head. Its not fair that stuff isnt like that.
Guess Im just some nerdy fat girl sitting in her kushty armchair writing trash and bollarks. Too caught up in fantasy to even bear facing the real world head on. |
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