kinda worried

09/22/2009

im kinda worried that i only have one friend. i used to have 3 but they kinda dissapeared and i havent seen them since saturday night. what if we get sick of each other? apparently ur sposed to make about 20 friends in freshers week, but i havent been to any of the things i cant be arsed. today was sposed to be scavenger hunt but i woke up too late. and then i had to go shopping. tonight is the shitty comedy man, so i wont be going to that, plus im broke and i bet they havent sent my money yet
im also waiting in on a call from jimmy, just as longs as its after 7 cos i have a lesson. how dumb is that? a lesson that starts at 5 and ends at 7!
anyway today is kinda dreary. we were going to the beach but we have no money, and i have a grand total of one friend to go round with. might have internet today when the tech guy gets back from lunch or whatever at 3. then i pray i can get onto wow. it might spice things up a bit.
otherwise feeling kinda down and left out. freshers week has been really dissapointing, partly got the loan people to blame for that, and party my inability to make friends or get in with an interesting crowd. going to the pub is ok but i want to do everything. feel dumb for not going out today. it feels as though im wasting the only freedom im gonna have before the work kicks in.
and then theres the whole stress of job hunting.
god