So tired

09/29/2009

I slept fot 11 hours last night, and only two and a half hours later I was feeling tired again, and yawning and everything. I think its the constant worry and fear and stress of being at uni.
And all the walking, miles in a day. Up to town and back here then up to the library and into uni and back, and then back to uni only to find my lesson is cancelled. And then walk back here and collapse in a heap.
And im constantly worried about money. I had to buy books today, that probably cost near on £100, if not more. I havent looked at the reciepts because Id rather not know. And who knows whether i get a bursary or not? No one seems to know. I want to get a job, but if I do ill have to take out my lip ring ect and become a nobody. I cant get that thought off my mind.
Its constantly bothering me
And im worried about whether im going to enough of my classes. It seems to be all lectures, all scattered about oddly. No lessons and lots of confusion. And I have to get my timetable right if i want to apply for a job.
*SCREAMS*
And then theres the lack of any kind of club or society thats not to do with sports. What about manga and creative writing? Is there no such thing here?
Im dreading taekwondo, im going to suck at it. And get thrown over peoples shoulders and get all bruised and sweaty. But I have to go because i need to keep friends with people or ill be a friendless pygmy.
And this was a good day by comparrison to others. I was in a great mood earlier today. And then I come on here and write down all my worries and it all just comes flooding right back.