the worst

08/10/2009

just had the worst night mare of my entire life. thats why im online at 5:04 am. I cant go back to sleep. not after that.
I dreamt i was on a plane, dont know where i was flying to, but everyone on the plane went to sleep. when we woke up we found that we were 8 miles under the sea and had been there for about 6 hours. There was water outside the glass, and the fear in my dream was SO intense. I was a passenger and was sitting in my seat when the pilot told us to stay calm, and that everything was going to be ok. All the other people believed him, but I couldnt stop crying. Mum told me to keep a brave face on it, and not to text Jimmy but I did. The army said it was too expensive to come and save us, and there was nothing they could do. In the end the pilot admitted to us that we were all going to die. And it was such a strong feeling of helpless ness and death I remember thinking of all the things in life id never get to do. Jimmy was the only thing on my mind.
We were sitting around on the plane, knowingly waiting for the windows to burst from the pressure and the water to come rushing in. I woke up crying.

but the worst bit of all, was mum asking in the morning why i hadnt got much sleep. because then i told her what i'd dreamt and she fucking laughed! She laughed!