Changing point in my life.

I'm 26 1/2 years old. I learned in Psychology that I'm still not fully mature. My views are still changing and I'm still growing as a person. At one point Dan was the man of my dreams. Now, a year and a half later, he's a nightmare. He's 28 1/2 years old and honestly the most immature man I have ever met. I promise you he did not behave like this during the first 6 months of our relationship. I now THANK GOD I did not have a baby with him. That would have been such a nighmare. I've tried unsuccessfully three times to leave him. He now has made a deal with me that I have to keep a journal for the next month of pros and cons, and on January 15th we will sit down and go over it and he'll let me leave if I still want to.

Sooo... My options for leaving: Go back to my crazy Aunt's house and deal with her drama again (The reason I moved in with Dan so fast to begin with) or get a decent job and a car within this month and rent a room from someone. I'm going with option 2. If possible.

I've found plenty of decent jobs for full time morning/day hours but that conflicts with school. So I'm thinking of changing my school classes to evening classes and applying for every possible full time morning / day job I see. Problem? Dan and I are sharing one car, and I don't know how that would work. I guess we could try to make it work for the next month and then it wouldn't be a problem.

He doesn't know I'm serious about leaving. He's totally oblivious. I've told him a countless amount of times that I'm unhappy and this is never going to work. He still is hoping it will. We were watching a TV show last night about the first kiss at a wedding and he even made a comment "I guess we'll have to practice that before we get married" .. I felt like saying ARE YOU FUCKING RETARTED!?!?

Since I was 16 I pretty much haven't been single for more than 3 months. I've gone from one long term relationship to the next, and it never turns out well. For the first time in my life I'm actually looking forward to being single and just doing me.

Cross your fingers and wish me luck over this next month, I've got a lot to do in a short amount of time.