No, I have not abandoned you, Bloop!

well, we tried the whole "not trying" and not thinking about it for a while, but that didn't work. So we're back to trying. THE RIGHT WAY.
Admittedly I am beer drinker and a ciggarete smoker. Dan is a weed smoker. I've quit drinking and he's quit weed before, but not while we were really TTC. I've never quit smoking ciggs. We went to make TTC our top priority.
The clock is ticking, we're not getting any younger. We want a baby so freakin bad and we would both be great parents. I hate seeing everyone around me with babies or pregnant and Dan and I have been trying for a while and we got nothing. I want to put 100% in it and hopefully we'll get what we want.