We almost broke up!!
Dan and I have had a REALLY rough month. (Or two?) We were fighting pretty bad 4 days in a row, with about 2 days without fighting inbetween. We really almost broke up, I packed my bags and was ready to go back to my Evil Aunt's rather than deal with his asshole bullshit anymore (Note - I'm in no way blaming the whole thing on him, I'm sure I was quite a bitch as well.) I think that's what it took though, us being on the verge of not being together, to make us realize how much we love eachother. It's only been a week since our last fight, but we've been talking every day about ways to make our communication better, ways to make us each better able to deal with the other when we're mad.. and our code phrase when the other is pissed off as hell about nothing is "Baby, you're the love of my life, please let's not fight about this." LOL .. is that sad???
I dunno, Even when I'm the most pissed off EVER at him and I'm ready to leave, I still have moments of clarity that tell me NO, I love this man and I know he truely loves me. It's just different with him. I've never loved someone so much. I've also never hated someone so much at times. We both compaire it to our siblings, we fought like hell with them when we were younger, but now there's no fighting at all. Dan and I see this as a phase in our relationship that will pass if we can hold on long enough. We know we don't want to be with anyone else, we know we just need to learn to deal with the other better when we're mad. I think all this fighting and almost breaking up has brought clarity to us. For the past week we've never been closer. We both got 100% tired of fighting and the uncertainty of it.
He wants to get promise ring tattoo's, I'm for it, but then again that's a life long commitment, so why not just get married? (Which we've talked about already but he doesn't want to give me a dinkey ring LOL)
In other news:::
Work is effing BS.. They say there's supposed to be 4 of us in Electronics at all times, yet even when there's 5 of us scheduled I'm the only one THERE. The others wander off all the time. The managers have taken notice and I've had 3 meetings with them, but so far nothing has changed. You're supposed to be FIRED after 7 absences within 6 months... Well, Alex got written up after 7 in ONE FUCKING MONTH, and then she called out yesterday (which would be 8) and called this morning saying she would be late and the manager told her not to come in at all (That makes 9) and she came in anyway so the manager told her she's not going to speak to her off the clock, go home. She's 18, has a 3 month old baby by one man, preggo by another man (about 5 months along now) and now she's with another man. No offence, but can you really afford to lose your job? Get it together girl, this is LIFE.
I'm not saying she's a bad mom, I don't know how she is with her baby, I only know how she is at the job. I'm just pissed off that she's so young, has no idea about LIFE, and is on her way to her 2nd child (That I'm paying for with WICC) and my boyfriend and I are responsible and can't fucking get pregnant to save our lives.
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