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*Mama Bear*'s Diary
by *Mama Bear*

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07/14/2013



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OK. So I know it's been a while (again) since I updated. But I been SUPER busy with work and always so tired. Anyways...for the updates... I went to the doctor because my right hand, wrist, and elbow has been hurting every time I pick up something. I got it checked out. Turns out it's the onset of carpal tunnel (sp?) She said with my small frame/being so small that it would happen sooner than average sized people. She explained that there is this "band" that is wrapped around my main veins in my arm/wrist and that the more I use my arms in a repetitive motion (which I do every night 4-6 nights a week) the the more pressure that that band is putting on the main vein. Which, incidentally, also causes numbness in my fingers. It sends a shock of pain up my arm and causes me to either drop my fork (which is how I pack boxes) or makes my hand seize up and clench around my fork and I have to wait for it to pass. Either way it's painful. She suggested I start wearing a brace from now on to help with the pressure. She said if not, then I could be headed towards surgery. BUT, she says she WILL NOT suggest surgery until it is unbearable because it is touch and go with the surgery. She said 1/3 of the ppl get better, 1/3 of them get worse, and 1/3 of them has no change at all. So of course, to steer clear of surgery...I got me a brace. Also got a preg test done and it was negative. Which I am SO thankful for. I am SO not ready for another one yet. Matthew wants a kid...but he agreed that we arent ready for one. We'll try for one after my youngest is 2.

Well Adisyn's birthday is coming up. For her 4th bday I took her to a horse farm and she got to walk in the field with over 50 horses, including Belgium (sp?) horses...which is quite a bit bigger than regular horses (or so im told) But they were SOOOO huge compared to her. And she had NO FEAR walking up to them. Last year we just threw a party for her. This year she wants to go bowling. So I am gonna take her bowling. She still like her princesses...BUT she wants TMNT bday this year

Ehren is attempting to go potty on his own, finally. I reward his with a Dum-Dum sucker when he goes, without me telling him to. His only problem now...is calling his sister a Bitch. IDK where he heard that from cause all he watches (when I'm home) is cartoons and I dont use language like that around the kids. Also, been looking for a decent headstart program for him, that way all 3 kids will be gone during the day so I am get some sleep for work at night Josh still hasnt seen him. Last time he saw Ehren and Adisyn...was June 11th. He hasnt even called or texted or email asking about them. He's lucky I havent filed child support on him for Ehren.

Rylee...well a lot but then again not a lot is going on with him. He is still coughing and congested. IDK why either. There is NO SMOKING in my house and the house stays at a comfortable 74 degrees. He can now sit up on his own But he cant get in that position on his own yet lol. He hasnt started crawling yet but I am staying patient for it. His biological father keeps demanding to see him...but I am not letting him. All while I was pregnant with Rylee, he never sent anything over to prepare for him. He is now 8 months old and he's only saw him 2 times (less than a hour put together) and has only gotten him 1 pack of diapers and wipes. He says he'll pay me child support but I have yet to see that. So I took initiative. I went to the Child Support Enforcement office and started my own case. They say that if he ignores the papers, does not reply or sign, then they are sending my case to the legal department and he'll be served and forced to pay. Luckily, my earnings has no reflection on to whether or not he'll pay. I admit that with my job, I can afford it all. BUT, it is HIS job to help take care of his child. He said that these past few months he's been busy taking care of things in his life and I told him that he needs his priorities straight. I told him when you become a parent, then your utmost top priority is your children. Nothing comes before them. So we will see how this goes. CSE office informed me that if he comes to me asking for us to work out our own agreement for me not to agree. Cause he can always back out and not honor it and then there is nothing that the courts can do about it. They told me to let a child support order be issued that way he cant refuse or else he'd have consequences to pay.

Me and Matthew are doing good. He have our little tiffs but nothing too bad. Sex is pretty freaking awesome too. In the past, I have had many partners (but that is now my past) and I have noticed that back then...I had sex because it was what I thought a couple did in order to keep a relationship going. BUT with Matthew..I am the one initiating it. I am actually enjoying having sex! Which is a new feeling for me. lol. Sad, huh? I use to have sex maybe 2 times a week. But with Matthew...we have sex at least 2 times a day (it'd be more but our work schedules makes us super tired as it is)...that's almost 14ish times a week!! I know that it sounds bad when I say that I enjoy sex with him, which I should be anyways. And I dont mean for it to come out like that. But It's an amazing feeling.

OK so now it's lunch time for me and the kids and I have to get Matthew's lunch ready for work tonight Hope to update soon.

*Mama Bear*
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