:note, this was written in haste, i plan to go back and clean it up later tonight.
I have a tendency to use quotes from tv/movies/books as my topic, generally just because it amuses me.
At the moment i lack an appropriate quote to encompass the scope of the days events.
There is a rather lovely person i have been pursuing for some time now, in a sense for years, and in another (more accurate) sense for only a couple of months.
And we spent some time together today during which she dropped quite a stunning piece of information on me.
............
you, the reader will notice no difference, but i've spent the last five minutes internally debating how specific i should be and so forth....and who might read it etc etc, partly out of respect for this persons desire for privacy but also because i'm not sure how much *i* want to say.
And i realize that it doesn't matter.
I've spent the last hour and a half or so since she and i parted ways in a bit of a fog trying to sort out what i think and feel, and what my sense of things in this case are, and there was something that bugge dme and i couldn't figure out what it was.
now i got it!!
This isn't to say three are not perhaps other things i need to resolve, i'm not niaeve enough to belice that there may not be further htings i'll have to reconcile.
But what has thrown me for a loop more than anything else at this time is that this revaltion was totally unexpected.
Sure, i knew she had some demons to deal with, and some bad shit had happened, and 'd have to proceed carefully. But this was way out of left field.
It was a shift,for whihc i was totally unprepared, and it threw me.
But first of all i asked for it (i did ask Freyja to suprise me!)
and two, IT DOESN'T FUCKING MATTER.
so, it's not how saw thigns as developing i adapt and move forward. |
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