same shit, different day.

Tomorrow is my bday..
I don't really feel anything about it. I't's just going to be another day.
The last year wasn't anything fantastic.
The only thing I'm looking forward to is my new tattoo. Hanging out with my friends will be good but my tattoo is going to be my favorite part.
Today started out pretty good but after the sun sets it seems like everything changes.
I feel so dark and down. I don't remember the last time that I got a good night's sleep and right now as I type I should be asleep but it never happens the way I'd like it to.
Luke told me some awful news too soo can't say I'm too excited about this year either.
I'd like to feel numb most of the time. I can never bring myself to do that however because I'm too into my responsibilities and prioritites and I'd never want to fuck up my work.
Nothing special ever goes on with me, everyday is exactly the same.
I want to change that so bad. I'm not sure how.