so i guess this is growing up.

a lot has changed since the last time i was here and since i'm always on my laptop and have many things on my mind i figure i'd come back.
last time i wrote, i was a junior in high school i was so busy trying to figure out what i was going to do with my life, i missed my boyfriend, and generally things were a lot easier then..
now i've been out of high school for almost a year. me and my marine got engaged this past christmas after he was in afghanistan for 7 months. we lost our baby at the beginning of last december. i'm a work-aholic, i never stop. i love making money. i have 2 tattoos, working on a 3rd. i'll be 19 next week.
those are just the big things.
i want to talk more about how i'm a complete zombie anymore though. everyday is exactly the same. i work work work, i barely find time for sleep and i don't always feel so productive. i never thought i would miss high school but i do. things were much easier then. i've had to grow up a lot and get a lot of shit thrown at me for the last year and i don't know what to do anymore.
everyday i think about how i should be living with Luke far away, i think about our baby that i never got to meet and i'm just supposed to wake up everyday and go on with that. i should just have a whole separate entry for that topic..
this is all for now.

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