So, I guess the day is technically over. *tilts head* Not like that matters.
I had a lot of fun hanging out with my visiting family. We went to breakfast together then my mother and I came home while they played tourist... and I took a nap lol. Later on we went back over to their cabin and they grilled out... and we drank a bit. I was drinking chocolate vodka with Diet Pepsi... it tasted like a Tootsie Roll! We danced, played the Wii, and just played around. Gyah but it was hilarious. I think my aunt wants me to movie to Illinois... and I'm thinking about it. *tilts head* I told my best friend tonight and I think it bothered her... I never said I was going to do it... because I probably won't... but it's an interesting option. I can't really afford to move anywhere right now and I'll be damned if I have to my disbursement checks from financial aid to pay for rent and utilities AND work a full time job just to afford moving back out of my parent's house. It would really just be a dumb move at this point. It kinda bothers me that there would be any possibility of me not moving in with her soon bothering her like that. I'm not sure if it's that or if it's just more her being stressed out and being short with me because of that fact. I don't know... but *shrugs* I kinda need her to understand my position. I understand that she's stressed horribly by her living conditions and I feel terrible for her... sadly I can't afford to move out again, even if she needs to. It does suck all around and I want to help her in any way possible... but that's not possible for me right now. Maybe I'm overreacting and she was really just tired and such... but since she left messenger without me getting a real chance to figure it out I feel the need to speculate. She may... or may not read this, I don't know. She has a bloop diary but I doubt she's been back on this site since she started it... and she might get pissed that I rambled on about it on the internet, but it's not like I used her name... and I don't use my name on here either. Seriously, if I didn't link you to this diary and tell you it was mine... then people wouldn't know. This is just too public for me to use names on... I might in the future, but I'm new to this site and don't feel comfortable with doing that just yet. Blah... maybe I'm just being oversensitive about it... it's not like I'm all depressed or irritated... or freaking out over it... it just makes me worry a bit. I'm a worry wart... I constantly worry about things, I can't help it... which is partially to blame for my sleep issues. I have pills that help... but they don't fix the issue entirely.
Okay... I need to stop before I actually do freak out, lol.... and I need to read my other friend's newest post (she just messaged me asking if I had read it yet *waves at her and giggles*). |
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