As my past keeps repeating itself

01/18/2009

hey yea it's been a while anyway thing have transpired that make it hard to come on here. For one my winter break away from Job Corps was well needed and very awesome I might add cause now I am pre-engaged.....and I am getting my promise ring for Valentine's Day. Second ever since I got back unfortunetly it has been a NIGHTMARE!!!!! My such reasons are this: Jon (guy here at Job Corps who I trusted) he severly sexually physically harassed/assaulted me hell he almost raped me!!!!!!, also there is a girl here who doesn't believe me and has been saying shit without even knowing me calling me a lier and shit!!!!!!! I wont go into detail about the other shit she said but it was pretty horrible and thus I have decided to resign from Job Corps for many a reasons. I just can't take being here anymore also the bastard Jon got a brb but isn't allowed back at this Job Corps as long as I am here......but I am pretty sure he'll get termed since he did it 3 times in one day the third was the one where I got scared and turned him in and the staff got a statement from him and he confessed to it so it isn't looking too good for him......I just need to be home near friends and family right now......but I promised myself that I wouldn't go home till I got my GED at least no matter how miserable this girl makes my life.......is it just me or is my past repeating itself? I just hope to God my test scores are high enough so I don't need to stay at Job Corps any longer then I need to. As you can see I have been severly distraught and depressed which who can blame me?! I am gonna mainly hybernate as much as possible and such........its only two weeks three at most and that's only for the writing scores........sometimes I feel bad about turning him in since most girls are iffy about me now. It's funny the guys are more on my side then the girls are isn't it usually the other way around? I think the reason why what that girl said hurt so much is cause it brought back really painful memories that I had mostly forgotten and since all this happened their all coming back again and that's the last thing I wanted....................*sigh* the worse part is that my fiancee wants to murder that Jon guy not that I blame him though How would he? since Jon is so far away? besides having his time spent here at this Jopb Corps is bad enough I think and that's why I decided not to press charges cause wtf really would the police do? nothing and I know that and you ppl reading this know that as well............