As I write this while listening to Luke Bryan's new album I keep thinking bout why my dating life is so fucked up cause the ex I have hates me and I hate her to a point but again we have different views on how things went south but I still love her and I want her but I can't go back to issues when she really don't care or even show one ounce of emotion and the current deal I'm in isn't a relationship is mostly her not caring on what I fell of my opion I'm slowly thinking she just fucking using me for the money cause I haven't bought myself one fun thing in a long while and now I'm starting to have feelings for a friend but I know that could happen but I keep fucking it up on purpose so I don't fuck up friendship for love and my job is pure hell did I forget that oh yeah I did til now my job is hell my bosses are hell and my manger still won't fix them and I'm so stressed from it I just don't want to deal with it anymore all I keep having on my mind is all those things and mostly I just want to be alone but right now I want to talk to someone so I can clear my mind on things |