.o37. Sometimes when I'm all alone, I don't know if I can take another breath

11/16/2010

Some say home is where the heart is

Tell me where my home is, cause I'm scared to death

Day 13 A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

That's easy. A few entries ago I wrote a letter to my dad & stepmom:

Dear Dad & Karen,

These will be the last thoughts I ever sacrifice for you both.

Everyone else tells me that this shouldn't be it, that eventually we'll all be fine again, but the truth is, it won't. I'm letting you go now.

I have had enough of wondering when you were gonna call, care, & show up. I'm not waiting on you anymore.

When I look back, I'm not ashamed at the things I've said to you, I'm ashamed at how much time I've wasted worrying about this situation.

You feel guilty for what you did, & you're projecting it on me.

Sincerely,
Mandi

Falling from the rooftop, crashing like a raindrop

Day 14 A picture of you and your family

This is me & my crazy mom on my wedding day. Though we've had our ups & downs, this woman has been the greatest mother, father, brother, sister, uncle, aunt, cousin, etc. She has been an unyielding & solid rock of support my entire life. & I could never doubt the lengths she would go to for my well-being. Nancy Lewis you are incredible. & I am blessed to call you mom.

Can you make my heart stop shaking like a leaf?

Day 15 Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

1. "Little Red Rodeo" Collin Raye
2. "Fare The Well, Northumberland" The Cottars
3. "Witchy Woman" The Eagles
4. "City Of Delusion" Muse
5. "Slow Motion" Third Eye Blind
6. "This Time" Carrie Underwood
7. "Dark Blue" Jack's Mannequin
8. "One Moment More" Mindy Smith
9. "Don't Forget To Remember Me" Carrie Underwood
10. "Already Gone" Kelly Clarkson

Standing at the floodgate, steady as an earthquake

Day 16 Another picture of yourself

This is my husband & I at a junior high event the other night (he's a junior high pastor).

Can you hear my heart break, tearing at the seams

I am drifting in the deep end
Holding on to your hand is all that saves me now
Life can treat you like a beggar
You hold me together, but I don't know how

Falling from the rooftop, crashing like a raindrop
Can you make my heart stop shaking like a leaf?
Standing at the floodgate, steady as an earthquake
Can you hear my heart break tearing at the seams?

Some say home is where the heart is & my heart is in your hands
You are all I need

Rising from the ashes, lifting from the madness
Now you see my heart is deep enough to dream
Heal me from the deathblow, lead & I will follow
Now you feel my heart glow, mending at the seams