2 PM
Well i did go to pub yesterday with a few people. I still ended up bloody rawing! And now i'm drunk again. Opened the wine at 9 this morning. I can't stop crying - i know drink doesn't help - but it has to be done. Atleast if i'm out of it,, well,, i don't know.
I smashed my phone up last night so i'm borrowing Shane's only after what a few people've said about him sorting out other girls curiosity got the best of me so i've checked his messages. Loads to 3 different girls asking if they're at home 'cos he wants to go round.. only there were sent at the time we found out we were pregnant & what's pissed me off more, at the time i'd miscarried. AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!! I can't stop crying. I hope they're jus friends. Please tell me they're jus friends.
I can't deal with this.
I feel like doing the deed again.. ):
I've confronted him. He's not even denied it, he's jus gone in a strop asking how i want him to act to an accusation like this.. i jus said "well it depends if it's true or not".
I DON'T NEED THIS ): OH MY DAYS. I DON'T WANT TO LOSE SHANE ASWELL
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