best friend of my EX

02/04/2011

hey bloop

So yesterday the best friend of my ex lover. asked me out !
i said that im already in a relation with someOne else nd he said break up with him nd let's get together i said no i can't ! nd he said okay let's get in a relation ship even if ur with him he will c u with me and fuck off !!
is he mad ?? omg nd he called me nd said hey i have to c u this noon i said that i have something else to do . nd he text me saying = hii btful i really wanna c u cuz i miss u and i love u
but im more than sure that he dnt give a fuck about me
he dnt love me at all ! but why is he lying about this?? anyway i dnt care
i will never go out with him cuz he is the best friend of my ex !!
a friend told me that my ex asked my ex bestfriend out ! he is an asshole !
i feel a little bit jalous cuz i still remember when he looked me in the eye nd told me he loved me nd i'll never let u alone , but he lied all the good time we had was a lie
i was living a lie my bestfriend cheated on me ! and he let me too
they all left me all alone ! they were evrything in my life
i really do loved them more than anything else in the whole world
but when we moved me and my parents
they all cheated on me
he couldnt even call me i was texting him but he never answer
it was the hardest moment in my life ! i'll never forget what they did to me
look at me now ! i just can't trust anybody ! i have never loved somebody else he was my 1st love nd he hurt me a LOT and now i just can't love somebody
so many time i try to make myself love somebody nd i write in my diary that i love him nd etc
but i found myself lying to me
how can i forget what they did ? how can i get him OUt of my minde nd my life ??
im so scared!

PS = SORRY FOR THE BAD ENGLISH THAT'S CUZ IT ISNT MY 1ST LANG

sarah