dubstep is the shitttt. im listening to some pretty wicked tunes right now. BUT unfortunately i.. yep. just had to turn it off cuz my man just walked in. he hates my music. but its ok if i have to endure his shit which.. to me is like violent mood swing enducing CRAP that i listen to going you fucking suck because we NEVER even in my own car do we get to listen to any of my music. its fucked up. just like everything else. BUT, on a lighter note me, him his mom and her new bf went zip lining yesterday! it was so cool! then we went out to eat and come back to the house and it was awesome, before we went zip lining, they were like lets drink some of this alcohol we have in the trunk. i was like hell yes!! so that settled my nerves a little bit. right NOW my bf just walked out and said he was going to work on the 4wheeler. i hope thats the case. we had sex this morning but.. it kinda made me wonder about things especially since he pretty much immediately walked out the door to go work on his 4wheeler. but... i love him and i dont think hes doing anything. i just want him to be close to me again. last night he pulled away from twice. like he didnt want me touching him. heartBREAKING. i had to try to distance myself but, shit, you cant just cut these emotions off and his mom asked us yesterday when we were gonna get married. it made me sad. because i know he doesnt want to marry me. =[ i just wish he'd get on some psych meds because he needs them. his mood swings are crazy, hes mean, hes selfish, hes alot of negative adjectives i could throw out there [if adjectives is the right word] im dumb people, sorry. but he really needs some and im sure he doesnt see that and i dont have the nerve to tell him he needs some psychologicla help ya know? lol... -=sigh=- |
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