waiting for the sun to go down i guess. a small amount of wine in the fridge thats screaming my name, only i can hear it.. but it says it needs me, or maybe i need it.. either way i havent touched it yet. and its a stressful day. alot on my mind. i feel unwanted, i feel we are coming to an end, i feel he thinks ive cheated on him, i havent, i feel that my soul is missing.. pieces really.. just scattered about throughout the universe.. dispersing like atoms and molecules and radiowaves and whatever the hell does that shit. i must find the pieces and return them to their rightful place to be ME again. "schizo" basically to me says you have missing pieces of your soul. im dying more and more everyday i think... not sure right now. feel numb and disconnected. disassociated. pizza in the oven soon. maybe if i eat. maybe if he would show a little bit that he cares. fuck today. |