strike
Weight:
221.5!
Exercise:
None for today, but I plan on it after I get out of school.
Food: Maple and brown sugar weight control oatmeal.
1 16oz cup of coffee with one cream and one sugar(splenda) which I'm drinking right now.
Notes:
Coffee is gross without a bunch of sugar and creamer in it. LOL. I know that's not a HUGE news flash or anything. haha.
Well I lost some poundage as you might have noticed. Im like a half a pound away from losing 10. I'm very excited about it. :D I think i was eating chocolate and feeling bloated and like crap because of a certain time of the month in which my lady readers will understand. But through that experience, as semi depressing as it was, I have learned something. If you fall off, get right back up. Maybe it's different for other people, but I think with me, if I just stick with it, maybe not every day, but if I am making sure to get back on once Im off, then I will eventually lose the weight that I want. Nobody's perfect. No one. I can't expect myself to be perfect with this.
I went to a Murder By Death show Tuesday. Had a couple of drinks and hung out with some friends. I was so self concious about what I looked like that I never felt comfortable. The clothes didnt fit the way that I wanted them to. I cant WAIT to get rid of that feeling. Cant loose it quick enough. I'll be so excited when I can just GO somewhere without pulling at my clothes. I kept my friggin wool coat on almost the entire time because i didnt feel comfortable. I
did feel comfortable leaving the house. but after I got there and saw all the pretty skinny girls, I was like: "Daaammmnnn..." There were a couple of big girls there, and they looked just as uncomfortable as I did. It's a process.
I just keep visualizing myself a few months down the road, wearing a bathing suit and at a water park with friends, looking happy. That's what I want. I want to go shopping with my friends and buy whatever I want off the rack. I want to show off to my family. I want my style to actually reflect me, and not have to compromise.
I can do this.
I can.
-Fin.