12-21-2010
I'm just not happy right now. Here I am all excited about the new baby and all the new adventures that I get to go on with her in my life and I'm excited that I'm finally getting my body back, well, I took off the tape things that were covering my c-section area. I can honestly say that I'm not a happy camper. I'm particular about my body. I already didn't like my body as a kid but as I got older I accepted it. And then I got pregnant and I wasn't happy that I was gaining weight or a huge tummy but I accepted it because I loved the outcome. Now the gloves have come off and I hate the end result that is my body. I told Kevin I was scarred for life, which is true and I know I should be proud of it but I'm not. It's not something I want people to see. It's not something I even want to see. Maybe it just looks bad now? Maybe it'll get better as time goes on?
I stopped taking pain meds today. I feel alright. A little pain in my right rib [[seriously, where did that pain come from?!]] but it's OK because Kevin said he would massage my back tonight if I made out with him. Well....DUH....it's not that hard to make out with my husband! Silly boy.
Kevin text me earlier today with surprising news. One of his coworkers was going to give us a gift card to go out and have a date night and dinner so he was asking me where I wanted to go. Of course I really didn't care as long as we got some time together. Well there's this new place that we both have been wanting to try. It's called Mellow Mushroom. Supposed to be a great place to eat. Well that coworker gave us $100 gift card there. I was like holy crap! That's insane! But I'm happy. Kevin said I could have a drink...although I'm not sure that's a great idea since I've gone sober for 10 months and I'm running low on sleep, but we'll see.
Little miss B is hungry but I can't feed her until her hiccups go away. She randomly gets them and I'm not sure why or if it's even a problem. I wouldn't assume so since everyone gets them but she gets them at least 3 times a day now. It's kind of annoying I know not only for me but for her as well as frustrating. My poor little stinker...but she's just so darn cute!
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