Made it through day 1 and other rants

04/29/2010

One Down...A Million Left.

Alright so I made it through the first day without Kevin! Yay! I went to work which went fine since I usually don't really think about him anyway while I'm working. I cried on the car ride home, no shocker there. I opened the door and CJ was at the top of the stairs and he was crying. I was so sad. He must have thought that since Wynnstan and Kevin left that I did too and the since they weren't coming back that I wasn't either. So then I cried again! But it's super cute because he barks at the front door every time that a noise is made. But I keep looking at too thinking that maybe he changed his mind and he's coming back but we all know that's not true. I decided that I'm moving after the lease is up. i'm renting a U-Haul trailer, packing my stuff, and moving to wherever I feel like. I honestly can't wait to just pick up and move. I'm so sick of this place and these people. They're all so fake. I honestly only have two real friends there. And I don't want to leave them. Is there anyone out there who is a real friend? Are people even capable of being a real friend? Once I'm gone I never want to even talk to these people again! I'm always there when they need me but I say one thing about possibly going ahead and buying baby furniture because it's super cheap and then all of a sudden I'm stupid. It really makes me want to leave tomorrow but I have to give at least two weeks notice. I think I'm just going to pay rent this month and then cut everything off so I don't have any bills except the car and the last months rent and then just go. I can't stand these people anymore. It just makes me so sad that apparently we all have to act immature and fourteen again. Why can't all be grown ups? For real! Don't sit there and talk about how you hate drama and how you try to stay away from it when you're right in the middle of it! I just want to be around civilized people. I want to save my kid from these ignorant fools! But I know it can't be done.