We had a good night out doing trick or treat. The girls went as Mickey and Minney Mouse, they sure looked cute. His Mom and dad and my parents all went out to take them. We headed out early in the evening, I didn't want them out late and when it got colder.
I missed that Austin wasn't with us. Just isn't the same with out him here. Having him gone just makes me feel bad, and when I talk to him I get so pissy with him. I want to look at smaller homes for we can get out there. But, he won't hear of it, it makes me so mad. I told him we are young we can work our way up, and start out smaller. He says, why start out smaller when we can start out with what we want if we just wait a bit. I'm tired of waiting, I'm tired of being away from him, I'm tired of the girls not having their daddy with them. I'm just tired of it all!
I want to be with him and the girls in one home, and being a family. He says, I'm just being selfish. I told him he is being selfish for not wanting us out there now, and looking for something smaller. But, he isn't giving an inch on this, and there is nothing I can do.
I feel like I'm a single parent with no help. He says, he will be home for Thanksgiving, I'm like yeah, but just for 4 days. We need to be together in one home. But, he really wants the home we are saving for. Maybe I'm just being bitchy because he isn't here. Seems like lately all we do is argue when we talk. I guess I need to try to get in a good mood before I talk to him. It's so hard to just put on a happy face!
Hope you all had a good Halloween! |
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