It as been 3 weeks since Austin as been gone, I'm so lonely without him. And of course he can't come here, he is working 6 days a week. And we are saving for that house, so I can't be flying out there all the time. This is so hard, and Journey misses him too, she is always asking where daddy is. We talk for hours on the phone at night, but it just isn't the same. Journey always talks to him, too. I try so hard not to cry while I talk to him, but I usually end up in tears.
On the other hand we have saved money, so that makes me happy. Austin puts his checks in our savings account, and he just uses his ATM card to our checking account. We are living really tight right now to save for the house. We put every bit of his money in savings, And about half of mine goes into savings. We need the other half of mine to live on. He only needs for food and gas, but I have the girls, so I need a bit more. And right now with my child support it really helps to be able to put more away for savings.
I just don't know if I can go until we have the money for house, to be away from Austin that long. I'm flying down over Labor Day, but I'm not talking the kids, it's to hard with him living with a guy he works with. The guy said, the girls can come, I will bring them out the next time, this time is for me.
Everything else is going good. The girls are good, just getting bigger. I'm just working and doing what I can to save. I'm so glad that Austin's Mom and my Mom watch the girls for me. I do want to get Austin a webcam so we an actually see each other when we chat online. I miss not seeing him!
I miss my better half so much!
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