It seems that college and work consumes the lives of many these day. Today was a combination of frustration and lethargy. Since 3:00 pm I've been interacting with this mundane laptop. Writing response papers for my Sociology class. Topics that seem too depressing to even rationalize that they do exist. Jude dressed up for me today. He really did look handsome, I almost forgot that every night it's a chore to even think about having sex with him. What happened to those days when we used to laugh and laugh? The days were I felt like the only girl you wanted to make love to? Now not even our kisses are the same. Instead of how plump and soft his lips are I can only think of the odor coming out of his mouth or that he can't even go to the store with me without looking at another female. I'm so tired. Tomorrow my papers are due. Maybe I'll have a little drink tonight to bring my spirits up. |