October 23rd... possibly the best day ever... the day I met Michael. I haven't written anything about him until now because I know how my life goes...
I didn't want to start talking about him only to have him run away the next day... but he hasn't. In fact we've gotten very very close...
He only lives an hour and a half from me... we talk constantly... and there just aren't words to describe him, and how he makes me feel.
My guard has NEVER been up with him... I was completely comfortable with him from the very first words we ever spoke...
and that just does NOT happen to me... I'm a very careful and guarded person... but he is so different...
The day we started talking we talked for a LONG time, and by the time we went to bed, we both got up the next day and deleted our profiles
on the website we met on. I absolutely adore him, and so close to just letting go and falling for him that it's kinda scary...
today we actually had a serious talk, which I usually tend to avoid because of the stuff I went through with Brandon...
but Michael asked me how I felt about him, and what I want... I told him I want him, and only him, because as much as it scares me,
I have very strong feelings for him. and he told me... i'll quote directly... "with all honesty I am crazy about you. I want you to be mine,
I want to love again, I want to wake up to you." and "i want to cherish you, love you, kiss you, i want to show you off."
*sigh* I'm just really happy right now, but still trying not to jinx anything...