none. whatsoever.
kevin called me a couple days ago and wanted to hang out.
he came over
we fucked
i gave him head
i gave him 2 cigarettes
and then he was like.. alright so im really tired. im going to go home and sleep.
uh...bye.
after that i think i finally realized what kind of person he is. and i can now successfully detach my feelings. which is good and bad.
i was at my dad's house for the last few days fixing it up and moving some big ass pieces of furniture with my uncle. my dad's house is enormous. i love it, but when you have to move a solid desk that feels like 1000 pounds up from the basement to the third floor...its impossible.
and oh yeah.. it wouldnt fit through any of the doorways, so we had to bring it back downstairs.
i hung 7 paintings in the living room. it looks really nice
even though i think my step mom is a fucking weirdo and i hate babies, im really excited for her to have this baby.
im making my dad and angel food cake from scratch for father's day 
because im poor and thats his favorite dessert
so, im not going back to school in the fall.
but im going to move in with my dad, get a job in new haven
quit working at fucking pacsun in clinton. (or maybe ill just cut down my hours)
im going to ask dacia if amistad needs any help. it would obviously be volunteer because they cant afford to pay me, which is fine. but i really like tutoring and helping out there because the kids are so funny.
hopefully i can save up enough to get a car...or ill just use my dads because he can walk to work from his house.
i honestly dont know how im going to tell courtney.
she is my best friend from school and im supposed to be in a suite with her, cammie, and julie...but im in a room with courtney.
i really really hope she doesnt have to get a random roommate :\
i feel really bad. i love her so much and i dont want to make her sad!!
i talked to jon yesterday. i love himmmmm. i hope i get to see him this summer because he is my best guy friend and the only one ive ever met that i can sleep in the same tiny ass bed with and he wont attempt to hook up with me haha
we just snuggle and sleep.
im definitely going back after this year. so im not concerned with losing friends or any of that dumb shit. i really think its good for me to take some time off.
and that way i can help out a lot at my mom's house with my brother and help at my dad's house with the freaking gross baby.
ughhhhhh i have a lot of shit to take care of within the next month or so. |
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