i honestly think that im just so stressed out that im getting overly emotional.
college was a bad idea for me i think. maybe i wasnt ready??
ughh im surprised im not on academic probation. im more likely than not, going to fail 2 classes.
and i dont even seem to care.
i feel like im a waste of my parents' money.
im just really really sad today.
and about everything. not just one thing. it is all building up.
i am trying to get excited about tonight. derek wants to hang out and drink with a few of his friends. which will be fun. ive only smoked with him. ive never seen him drunk.
my dad gets back from puerto rico tomorrow! and my mom gets back from switzerland tomorrow! maybe ill call my dad and talk to him and be honest with him. i think if i just let him know how stressed out i am.. he might not be so mad.
godddd my life sucks right now.
no it doesnt. im being dramatic.
my life is awesome.
im going outside to smoke butts and hopefully nobody will bother me.
unless its my roommate. i want her to stop watching movies and talk to me!! |