I can't get away from myself!

01/13/2011

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Today had been another bleh day. I took a shower and got back in my pjs.

Although I am going to fix my hair and put a little make-up on and I did my nails. Just to fix myself up a little for Mel. But I just never feel good about myself when I'm unemployed. I've been trying to diet. Thought that would make me feel better about myself. But I can't stay with it. I WANT to lose weight. I have the want, but not the will. I hate feeling fat. Melissa is always telling me that I'm not fat. That I'm beautiful! But I can't bring myself to believe her. There are some days that I think I look good. But most of the time, I look in the mirror and see a big fat slob.
You guys have seen pics of me, right? If you have, maybe you can understand why I feel this way!

I want a job. I NEED a job. I need to get out of this house. I'm going stir crazy in here!!!! Sure I have the puppies to look after and the other dogs to take care of. And I have the house to clean. But I can only clean so much. And I've been around my dogs so much, They are starting to annoy me. Just with their constant barking, jumping, getting into everything. I need to get away. And the pups....are too annoying. I love them. They are adorable. But They are getting bigger and starting to get into things. And I'm constantly having to clean the carpet because of their accidents. They don't know any better. But it still gets to me. Melissa loves playing with them, but only because she gets away. Even if it is just to work. I'd give anything for that.

Anyways- I gotta go do dishes. Here's some old and recent pics of me. [I can't wait to get a new USB cord!!!]

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sometimes i wonder when ppl say they are fat.. i wonder.. what do they think of me? i think i'm the biggest out of all my friends. so then u gotta wonder.. how many lie?
sorry thats me being sad about my weight.
i think u look great!!! dont be so hard on urself

[♥ Mrs. Mommy|0 likes] [|reply]

Mama you look GREAT! -and no, I'm NOT "just saying" that. You're beautiful and I'm jealous of you! So stop being rediculous!

[mae_mcawesome|0 likes] [|reply]

You're beautiful! I don't know where you get this notion that you're fat, because you're not. I'm the same way when I'm unemployed, I get depressed because I feel like I'm not providing for my family. It will get better.

[Me, I'm Not Star

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RYC : Thank you!

And as far as your entry, honey you are nowhere near fat! You look absolutely great! I think if you really are unhappy with yourself then maybe you should make a change, but I honestly believe that you look beautiful. And I also think your loved one does too. Mel loves you for you and who you are!

And I hope you are able to find a job soon, or maybe find other things to keep you occupied that can make you feel good about yourself.

[i blinked 182 &heart|0 likes] [|reply]

I don't think your fat at all hon. But you have to be comfortable in your own skin. The job market BLOWS Too bad your not in my area, my place is always hiring! I'd put a good word in for you! And I'd get a bonus, lol!

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