For our little miracle <3
This Diary is supposed to be about my life. And although I think it might be a jinx, that is what I shall write about.
On the 19th of this month, My wife and I did another at home insemination. We have been doing these since the first of this year. and So far...no luck. I've been praying my little heart out. So please, anyone who is in the same boat as me, or anyone who is a mother and wants nothing more than every woman to feel the way you do, being a mother....pray for us!!
Today I was off. I stayed home. I didn't eat a lot...I wasn't hungry. By the time Melissa got home from work at 10pm and I started making dinner I was so sick to my stomach I could barely move. I figured I just needed to eat something. So, I finished dinner and we sat down to eat. But with every bite, I felt more sick. I thought maybe I was so hungry that I was eating too fast. but now, 3 hours after the fact, I am still sick to my stomach.
**WARNING: PERSONAL DETAILS!!!**
Today I have been peeing a lot. It just kind of gradually becomes more and more often that I am running to the bathroom. and I've been constipated for a couple of days too.
But I know that none of this means I am pregnant. I understand that I could be psyching [sp??] myself out. I am just saying...this is how I feel.
But also, the past few days I have been having these cramps. It's almost like I'm about to start. But they come and go. They will be on one side of my lower stomach and then the other side, and then go all the way across.
I'm not sure of anything anymore. I hope writing this did not jinx me. [I am very superstitious]
Anyways- either way it goes....please pray for us....and if you don't pray...well then just keep us in your thoughts.
Have a good rest of the weekend everyone!!
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